A very self-centered exposing post o let it all out.

I have so much to think about who I am, who I want to be and what I've been doing in my life lately...
I met a friend of mine today that I haven't seen for a long time. I know the influence of negative people and their negative energy and comments influence us a lot to create this distance between us, but I've taking wrong paths that also contribute to that.
She told me today about constructive criticism, which made me very reflective on who I've become.
There's been a while since I came to the conclusion that I need to start building a wall around myself, too keep negativeness away from my life and my plans for the future (I guess writing about it on the blog is an attempt to tear these walls down a little bit).
Since I was a kid, me and my family have been struggling against judgmental people who can't understand and respect that we're kinda different and we just can't help it. I've tried to fit in, at many different stages of my life, but every time I tried to change who I am to be more like regular people I got screwed.
For those factors and many others, I tend to feel extremely alone... I just can't feel I'm a part of anything and I have become a very annoying opinionated and complaining person. I've been too bitter lately, too critic. I feel like I have to protect myself from everything and everyone, like I can't trust anyone besides my family. Is it true? Are people actually that phony and dangerous? Or have I become a terrible person?
I'm just tired... of trying to fit in and never succeeding, of other people's gossiping, of the problem of being myself. Trust me when I say, most of the time, being yourself can be the worst of your problems... Sometimes it's just socially simpler to act like a regular person.
I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt or pushed away for being such a difficult person to deal with... I really want it to change, I just don't know how to do it without feeling dishonest to myself about it.

Beer bottle caps and cloth part 2.

Writing from the cellphone again! Yay!
I've finally made something to my house with beer bottles and cloth (there is a post here on the blog with a video showing how to make them, check it out)! What do you think of it?

And for those who have read the other post, have you already made something! If yes, share it! If you haven't made anything, time to start!

Indoor garden.

This is the first time I write a post from my cellphone! Let's give it a try and see if I get used to it. It takes longer for me to type but maybe it's going to make me write more, since I can write from the bus on my way home (like now). (And later...) I saved it as a draft and finished it at home, on the computer, because I didn't know how to put the pictures in the correct places... But I discovered it already, I guess.

I've been reading a lot online about ways to have plants indoors. I live on the third floor, in a small house. Not having a yard or space to have many animals and plants is something really sad for me. I grew up in many different places an in all of them we used to have lots of nature all around us. That's probably why I want to have a house in the countryside some day...

I took some time today to work on my garden. It's such a relaxing activity to deal with plants and soil! Fiona (the cat) likes it a lot too. She couldn't help it, hoping around and throwing herself at the dirt...

The only problem is that I don't know the names of my plants!!! So I need the help of my favorite almost doctor biologist (and sister) Anita Bonita to tell me the names of all my plants...

My husband knows how much I love plants and nature, so he started giving me flowers a few months ago. Isn't he awesome?! The first one was this one, for no special reason. He just arrived home with them and it made me so happy!
They came in a tiny vase, so I put them inside an ice-cream empty container and it's a much healhier and happier plant now!

Later I bought one with no flowers. I was walking in the supermarket when I felt Like someone was observing me. When I looked at this plant it was like it was saying 'pleaaase, take me home!'. How could I say no?! I changed its soil for a better one and it looks great!

In March 8, international day of women, sweet hubby gave me five more different types of flowers!
I put these in an empty powdered milk container, which I still have to decorate.

These ones are violets, I guess, and behind them there's one that has yellow flowers... I saw this amazing idea in many different pages, specially on facebook, some friends sent me pictures of plants in soda plastic bottles (perfect for small spaces, because you can also hang them on a wall). I LOVED it!!!

I put some sunflower seeds in these vases, let's see if it grows!

Here there are three vases with garlic and in the other one I put some beans... I hope they grow and become magic beans! ^^

Some things remind me of good times in art course at the university, which I took for two and a half years but, instead of finishing it, I changed to English. The headless-armless woman (she used to have wings, but they broke) and the ball I made in pottery classes, my favorote art subject. The tray is what we used to eat that time in the university's restaurant. Now they use plates... boring!

These things are used to drink chimarrão, a traditional hot beverage from Argentina and south of Brasil. We bought them while we were in Buenos Aires for our honeymoon!

And I couldn't make a garden without one of my biggest passions... FROGS!!! I love all of them. When I was a child, I used to play with real frogs and toads in Pantanal... It was amazing!

Not only the vases are recycled in this garden. Besides using food and soda containers as vases, the shelf's decoration is made of free samples of formica found in the trash!

Do you have a garden in your house? Would you like to? What other recycling tips could you give me?

Favorite places.

A few weeks ago my husband and I went to Vitoria (a city 5 minutes away from Vila Velha, where I live - literally - just across a bridge) just to hang out in an open park full of nature, beautiful trees, flowers and animals. We live in a beautiful place, the beach is three blocks away from my house and it's a relatively calm neighborhood that started growing about 10 years ago. Before that it was just some ugly houses looking the same, at the limits of the city, with sewer problems and a few paved streets. Here are some pictures of where we live:

That's for you to understand that I realize I live at an amazing place and I don't have anything to complain about it. The only problem is that I'm crazy about parks and gardens. Sometimes it gets kinda tiring to look at the same ocean every day. I need plants, flowers, something different to inspire me. And there is a park that we really like to go sometimes, it's inspiring and peaceful.

But, of course, going back to the beach is always awesome! ^^

Is there a place you really like going where you live in your free time? Share it! :)

Getting tattooed!!! :D

I've just arrived home from Lee's place. He's a friend, an ex-student and my tatoo artits. I'm finally getting tatooed again! Yey!!!! :D
I'm finally getting my full sleeve, there're flowers (of course), birds and skulls. We've done most of the outline today, so we're probably going to need five or six more sessions to finish it... =\ I can't wait for it to be complete!!! (*_*)

I'd never imagined that it hurt so much in the elbow!!! (>_<)

Do you have any tattoos? Show me pictures of it!!! Are you planning any new ones?

Tomorrow...

...wait for it.

Keeping my cellphone safe.

All cellphones I've had in life have suicidal tendencies. They think they can fly and usually throw themselves down staircases or just jump out of my hands...
That's why I've been trying to sew cases for my phone by hand lately. I made a double-sided case, but my bestie Daia thought it was nice and I gave it to her as a gift. I don't have much time lately, but I already started another one for myself, I just don't know how long it's going to take for me to finish it. I'm kinda slow, in every aspect of my life! LOL!

Of course there's something floral about it... I'm super tacky and flowers are my favorite thing in the world!

Does your phone case shows something related to your personality?

Jude's 30!!!

Last Saturday was my sweet husband's birthday and we had a little party here at our home. Some friends came over to celebrate this special date with us and we had so much fun!!!

Our friend Jovita made us mojitos! (*_*)

I made an amazing dish with chopped pork with a sauce made with tomatoes, peppers, ginger, onions and garlic. I didn't have time do take pictures of it, because everybody attacked it right away and it was over in a blink of an eye!!!
There were also a chicken and cheese casserole and a vegetarian one (there were vegetables but also cheddar and eggs in it). Everybody loved it!

I'm so proud of my hubby! He's so good to me and makes me so happy! My life would be miserable without him... I love our life together!!!

What do you like doing on your b-day? Do you have any plans for your next one?

Born to be wild!

Mom and dad are on the road again! Where to? I have no idea. They are in their 60's and they love riding their Harleys, every opportunity they have they hit the road and go wild on motorcycle parties with their friends (and their fans).

Mom loves rock and roll. She goes crazy drinking Jack Daniels and banging her hair. And she's really feminine, well dressed, she puts her make up, boots and leather on and rocks everybody's world!

That's why I sewed this purse, so she can go to her parties and trips with style.

How about your parents? What can you tell me about them?